3 down and 3 more to go!

Yep the title basically says it all. Got 3 more exams left...Well my exams have been OKAY. But I gotta do really really well in my next 3 exams. There's quite a lot to revise for chemistry but I know if I try I can do it! I ain't lettin no shitty negative thoughts bog me down. No sirry, ain't lettin em get me down. I got my dreams to fulfill so I gotta keep moving forwards. And not let any petty negative or shitty thoughts get me down. They're not even MY thoughts! So why should I let em make ME feel wacky? I've had enough of them shitty thoughts trying to annoy me for the last few years. Ain't letting em annoy me anymore.

I'll do my best and not worry because worrying sucks big time and it NEVER EVER helps. Seriously, I speak from experience. So yeah I ain't lettin no shitty negative thoughts bug me. SCREW YOU SHITTY NEGATIVE THOUGHTS!  I DON'T GIVE A SHIT!

Hmm *cough*
Well I had ta get that out.
Sometimes it might be a bit pressurising what with all these worries an all about getting good grades and stuff...but seriously I ain't worrying. Because it never helps. I'll do my best and let's hope I can finish my A-levels this time with good grades. It's been draggin on for so long...I didn't think A-levels would drag on for this long. But whatever, we'll conquer this A-level shit! YEAUH! And get really good grades too! I know I can do it, if I stay calm and give it my best! Gotta kick some wacky kids' butts and make my mum happy too! HI-YAAH!

So yeah..

Here's some nice relaxing music:




Well I gotta sleep now
Got lotsa chemistry to study...yeah it always seems to be chemistry. That subject....its like never ending or something. Seriously :I Oh well.
See ya
Mony

This song...

Is epic. 'Nough said.
Just do yourself a favour and listen to it. Though I dunno if this is everyone's cup of tea, but it sure is mine. It's quite different from Capsule's other songs, mind I like their other songs too. But the refreshingly relaxing feel to this is indeed quite nice.

My maths exam was okay. Now got 4 more exams left. Next one's on the 21st, gotta revise chemistry and statistics these few days. Anyway I gotta run. Need some sleep, been feeling tired all morning D: Wish it would rain some more. Oh well.
See ya
Ciao
Mony

This heat...

IS DRIVING ME CRAZY is what >:E
Seriously why is it so effin hot? I feel like staying under the shower all day....and this heat is making my head ache. That's why I don't like summer..but it's the rainy season almost isn't it? Why it ain't raining...

Anyway this song is awesome:



Hmm I better get going. Got lotsa maths to do. Tomorrow's my maths exam so yeah.
See ya
Ciao
Mony

EXAMS! They be here!

Arr me exams are literally knocking at ze door. Now to welcome em I s'pose. So tomorrow's my physics paper 4 exam. And boy the last 2 days have been sure as heck tiring. Been eatin, sleepin, drinking physics. Not just me, my friend Holly too. Whowee it's been crazy. And guess what happened today? Just GUESS. I lost my passport. Guess it's around here and there somewhere but we searched everywhere and couldn't find it. And then mum had to go to British Council and get an approval thingy on a photocopy of my passport. I was lucky that I had scans of my passport from last year. But if I didn't then it'd be terrible *shudders* Everyone got so worried. I felt really pissed at myself for not keeping track of my passport properly. But yeah I'm glad that I got my passport photocopy.

On other news I've been missing my colour pencils loads. Oh well. I better go sleep now. It's almost 2. Sheesh! I got an exam tomorrow. Gotta do really well and kick some wacky kids' butts and make my mum happy! Hi-yahh!

Wish me luck guys
See ya
G'night
Mony.

Best Wishes

This song. Is. Epic.
'Nough sed.

Pokemon Best Wishes is AWESOME...*sniff* Was watching it earlier this year but then kinda got busy so paused for a while...and then didn't get around to watching again until the other day. Great to watch Pokemon again he he. But because of the shitty powercuts I'm having to load the episodes like atleast 3 times a day before I can actually watch it. Sucks but oh well.

By the way Rica Matsumoto is awesome:

She sings with so much energy and lookit those oshawott caps *wants*
Pokemon, Gotta love em all!
XD

By the way, today came across this really cool artist on Pixiv. Here's the link to their gallery: http://www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=97298 The name they go by is Yuui-ichi. I really liked these two pictures a lot:
All those ghost pokemons. Anyway I love the colouring style, it's like painterly but also kinda chunky and unblended at the same time. Very cool. And the drawing style is also quite stylised, really awesome.


Gotta love 8-bit stuff. Not just that though, it's painted really nicely. Kinda reminds me of the "Pixels" short film. 

This picture really felt special to me, it shows the special bond Ash and Pikachu share. They look so happy, literally made me go d'awww XD I really love it.

Brings back memories of when I first started watching Pokemon :') That was 2003..wow been almost 10 years eh. Awesome :D

Well I better go now heh.
I don't think I've featured any art here before, but I've linked to artists before. Well since I'm posting something pokemon related so I thought I should embed this nice pokemon artwork..and their other stuff was so nice so I thought I'll embed em too.

See ya
Ciao
Mony

Moments of beauty

The puddles of water reflecting fragments of the sky,

The crinkling of the bells of the rickshaws as they pass by,

The intense blue of the evening sky after rain,

The warm glow of the yellow light from the house in front of my balcony,

Beauty finds its way through all the noise, chaos and mess of the world.

~

Evening out

 

So here's what I drew...just now lol. Felt like painting something quick. It was quite relaxing and also kinda fun painting this. The other day I saw this really nice evening sky and yesterday morning I saw this really beautiful sky at dawn. The colours were so nice. Just too awesome. This was sorta inspired by that.

Done in Photoshop CS3 with me intuos4. Took around an hour.

Critiques and comments appreciated.

Well I better go sleep now..sheesh it's almost 4 am and I was supposed to sleep at 2am today too..oh well.

See yaaa

G'night.

Mony

Some stuff...

I don't know why this crap has to repeat itself over and over again. I'll probably sound like an arse for saying this and there are people who lead worse lives..but it's my life and I know what I'm going through..so this has to be said. Why can't my life be normal for a change? Why must all these shitty complications seep in? WHY? Why must you do this to us? Because of you grown ups us kids have to suffer. What's with this awkward tension you're creating? So many whys huh. Oh well this has been bugging me for the past 1 month or so. Have to get it out.

For quite a while now of my close relatives is behaving really weirdly and a few others are acting weird too and this is creating an awkward tension within my family. Worst part is it's making communication between us kids weirder. I can hardly get to meet my cousins. I miss them a lot, but I think my little brother misses them even more since he doesn't have anyone to play with these days. Sure you can say he's got me...but I've been so busy with my exams coming up and all.....I hardly get to spend much time with him. Plus since we moved to a new place, don't have a tv yet and he's not supposed to play games on the computer all the time. Even though we share the same room we don't get to play games or do much together nowadays. Though I still try to talk with him as much as possible. But I do miss those fun evenings when us 5 would play some board game, talk, laugh and just have a great time together. And here I thought now that we moved and are a lot closer we'd be able to visit each other more often...but guess what? The opposite happens. We hardly get to meet...ever I:< Dang grown ups and their silly schemes. Stop friggin making life awkward for us kids :< As if life ain't weird enough as it is.

And I hardly get to meet any of my friends either. Either they live too far, too busy or just live abroad. Having friends come over to your place regularly is like stuff you hear in legends for me. Having them come over once is like too good to be true. Getting to meet em is also the same. That's how it is for me. And now that I hardly go to school I don't get to meet anyone. I miss the fun times I used to have in school, mind you I had a lotta crappy times at school too...but then obviously I wouldn't think fondly of those times right? I miss the times I spent with my friends at school, miss eating tiffin at school, miss drawing at school...and miss doing school homework even. Wow heh. My A-level experience has been shitty, I kid you not. And after my O-levels I though A-levels would be even better, the teachers would be more serious and be more willing to teach...couldn't have been more wrong. They were even worse, would hardly teach stuff in school. And slowly people stopped attending classes. Me and my friend would often be the only people going to class...then the classes hardly happened. Then even we stopped going to school...it was tough for me to do that but when school wasn't like school anymore what use was of me going there to everyday? Out of bitterness I stopped going to school. And I hate coaching so couldn't be arsed to go there either. So where do I go?

Well I stay at home all day is what. Which is fine an all that but sheesh .... I just miss everyone a lot...my friends, my cousins. It's been so long. Been feeling so detached from everything. Miss doing stuff I like on the computer too without having to get worried about being busted....like playing games, reading books, comics, animating, doodling, etc etc. The internet is supposed to help you keep in touch with your friends, but how does one keep in touch when people either don't come online or don't reply? Ah don't mind me, I'm just ranting here. I guess I've just been stuck in the A-level loop for too long. Can't wait till my exams finish. My brain's just in a knot right now I think. I guess I'll just do nothing and doodle complete random stuff all day for a few days and play games and do nothing much and just relax and let my mind untie all the knots by itself. Yeahh.

But for now I gotta remind myself, this time won't come back to me so I gotta make the best out of it and make sure to learn all the stuff and get my subject revisions done before my exams start. So that I don't feel like I could've studied a bit more during my exams. Because that feeling sucks. Normally I can't be bothered to worry about my results, but that nagging feeling is indeed quite annoying. So yeah I gotta get my revision done. But I'm glad I took some time out to write this because I feel a lot better after getting it all out. This stuff has been churning in my mind for a while now and I couldn't take it anymore. So had to let it out.

I guess everything will be okay, just a matter of time. But it seems to be taking quite a while till my exams finish heh. Oh well.