Okay after like almost 3 friggin months, I'm dragging my lazy self to finally update my blog. There were many times during the last few months that I wanted to write of all that had and was happening, but I felt too down to actually write about any of it. But now here I am. Well ofcourse my AS level results came out early in August and it was probably the worst exam results ever. EVER. I got D's in all my subjects, except art and design, in which I got an E. Yep I bagged 4 D's and an E.
Ofcourse I never saw it coming and that was probably one of my biggest faults. I should've seen it coming. I should've realised that I didn't know enough, that I just couldn't get all A's by quickly skimming through my books and notes a month or two before the exam, when I didn't even understand most of it. And by the time I started getting the hang of it, it was too late. But well they say whatever happens is always for the best and perhaps it is. Life doesn't usually give you second chances, so when you do get one, you gotta make the best of it. So I'm retaking all of my exams and uh I'm ditching that stupid art and design. That was probably another reason for my ultra-lame grades. I mean seriously, what was I thinking, taking that subject just for the heck of it. I mean come on, who ever takes a subject just for the lulz yeah? Ofcourse after my AS exams I decided not to pursue it for A2, but even then. I should have never taken it in the first place.
All those weeks I spent trying to come up with a concept for my coursework..nothing came of it. Well I could atleast be happy if I could get the drawing I did during the 3-day exam..not the best drawing ever, but I poured in lotsa love into it and I definitely wanted to keep it with me..or atleast a photo of it would be nice too ya know. But anyway I'm winding things up too much. I was pretty depressed for a while, but then slowly I began to get a grip. It's no use being all depressed and shit, cause that's never going to help you. So I got up,dusted myself and moved on. And here I am. After almost 3 months, I'm finally here. You might remember that at the beginning of this year I made some New Year's resolutions. I couldn't fullfill all of them. I didn't get all A's and couldn't make my mum happy for that matter. I still didn't make an animated short and I don't know if I will be able to make one this year. But I do believe that next year, after my exams I will. But I want to fulfill the rest anyway.
Anyway, so I've decided to re-sit for all of my current AS/A2 level subjects: Physics, Chemistry, Maths and Computing. I decided not to do English AS. I didn't feel like forcing myself to write essays and shit..I've never liked essays. Writing stories is my way to go. And I've finally decided to work on a plot for Autumn Rain. About time I should say. I thought of the name and the atmosphere and everything like more than a year ago. Its time to polish my writing skills! I've been wanting to join NaNoWriMo ever since I learned of it last year and this year I've actually signed up XD I definitely wanna win eeet. Yuss. I'll give it my best. Though I have to plan this carefully since my precambridge exams are coming up and I have quite a lotta studying to do. We went to Cox's Bazaar in September for Eid and it was awesome. And very inspiring too. And then I got sick after we cam back on the 14th and my eyes puffed up and stuff so I couldn't study nor do anything else besides lying on the bed. And a few weeks ago my Aunt, her husband (my uncle) and my cousin Eva moved out. I've been living with my aunt and Eva for the last 10 years almost and well it feels kinda weird ..but I guess we're getting used to it. That's basically what's happened.
But one really sad thing has happened. Eva's Cousin, Bithi, who was a really awesome child and somehow really liked me even though we never met nor saw each other, passed away the day after we returned from Chittagong. May she rest in peace. I will never forget you Bithi. You'll always be in my heart.
That's all for now. This is one long blog post. I'll be updating you regularly Blog-dear. So I was away for a long time, but I'm finally here.
Goodnight Everybody and take care.
Mony
